Bringing in 2012

Only Two days Left for Bringing in 2012..The First new year of this decade...A Decade got over and we stepped into 2011..Life too took several turns but then it went on! From Delhi to Mumbai this year has been no doubt a remarkable year when it comes to growth!

There had been lots of learning moments! There had been lots of cherishable moments and none of the moments where I feel regret!

Yes Whatever happened happened for the best!

The best I would say,I am not out of problems everything remains the same,same cacophony of existence but then What a Life!

Its like riding on a roller coaster! Ups and Downs! downs most of the times but then thats the beauty !

I am not just writing to console myself but as a matter of fact I got directions as to what steps should I need to take to chase my dreams!

Dreams still remain the very important constituent of my life!

It still drives me towards my goal..I dream with open eyes!

I have continued dreaming irrespective of a lot of many tribulations which has come in my way but then Life is nothing but conversion of our dreams,well thats what I believe or I think I believe so....
New Meanings in relationships ,Totally new understanding and insight to a human behavior,yes certain beliefs of mine got challenged..I even got back stabbed,hurt ,cried and cribbed but then All's Well that Ends Well..Its the Last working day of 2011 in Office ,We are having a team lunch!
So what if I am ending my 2011 as a single..yes I have never been in a relationship! And Lo-This year too been unlucky in Love :)
So What! I have not stopped being the lovable self that I am..I love love :) yeah I am not at all bitter and what  more I am quite content and satisfied with the turn out of events!
From time and time again my belief is strengthened that Trust in God's Timing! yes I have started to....... 

The new year Dressing up

Well I am always confused when comes to dressing up for parties like New year,The safe option always is go for a one piece,and safe color remains black and white..
This new year I am quite inspired by colors and am thinking of wearing a red long bandez skirt with golden border,and a peacock blue choli....

Gold Accessories to go along with the dress and I remembered the similar look Dia Mirza was carrying in one of her recently released movie...
Yes Something like this...
The skirt which is a typical bandez,available easily at multiple stores like Mela,Bandra or Colaba...can be worn with a sexy choli or with a top along with a chest jacket...
Having spent four years in Jaipur,I happen to have a huge collection of these traditional bandinis cholis and skirts and sarees....
They are evergreen and always in Fashion...Now is the time when you can actually mix and wear..as in for denim lovers you can wear a bandini choli with a denim short !
Quite a ethnic and fabulous look it gives......
But as am not a denim person I prefer red long skirt with wide golden borders...
In Accessories it has to be golden dangling earrings and golden bangles..and nothing like golden typical jaipuri mojri's perfect for attire like this.....Well I think golden  stilettos can also be worn if not a mojri...

And when it comes to make up I am a perfectionist ,One can experiment with so many looks like going a typical traditional red golden eyeshadow with a red lipstick or  green,blue ,copper eyeshadow with pale peach color lips!
I am right now sitting in  office and all I can think are dresses and dresses and makeup! Sometimes I wonder why I love going out is that- the  only reason could be - I get a chance to flaunt all my collection! yeah I love dressing up!

That time of the year again..

Its 24thDecember,When Santa is expected to deliver gifts at midnight.We all have our shares of choices when it comes to gifts,We all are ready with our wish list..
This christams nobody is my secret Santa!

Well Last 25 years I guess nobody had been my secret Santa..When it comes to gifts am pretty bad ,I never end up getting any gifts but always end up giving..may be not even giving...I am in a bit of bad mood as am writing this post!
Well am sitting in office working on Saturday got loads of work piled up for Monday tensed about my depreciating bank balance,yeah I realise I shop like anything and thanks to the use of credit cards these days,you realise the consequences once the month is about to end..Nevertheless Its that time of the year when festivities are there,people are planning a vacation infact have left for vacations and am here all by myself still struggling with the complexities inside me try to unknot that particulat peculiar nagging feeling...Last night I  stared out at the city that hummed and glittered like a computer chip deep in some unknowable machine, holding its secret like a poker hand..yes Mumbai especially Bandra is full of christmas spirit...and I find myself alone evening after evening....Not that I donot have any choice its just that I choose not to step out,somehow these days have become comfortable with the lonely corner of my bedroom!somehow the Silence have become my best friends these days somehow the peace around me doesnt meddles with the storm inside my heart......Somehow being alone again this Christamas shouldnot have surprised me ..I should have known.......better known!

10 days for a New Year

This year was the beginning of New Decade..A lot of upheaval,a lot of change........
This year was the year I turned 25!
This year was the year I failed....!

This year will be the year always etched in my memory! India Won the World cup yeah  ! For somebody Like me It was the best moments..I cried..I was super elated and I danced......Rejoiced and what more I was in Bombay ! I had been living in Bombay and World cup was won by us! The Indian Team !

Then There are many more happening stuffs which took place worldwide and even in India..A mass upsurge of people all over India in support of Anti-Corruption Bill/Anna Hazare..Rather a Historical Moment at Ramlila Maidan and I was in Delhi ...yes I have gone all the way from Gurgaon to Ramlila Maidan New Delhi and I was a part of the crowd who cheered and supported.......Well that was an epic moment and I am pretty sure a lot of us would be proud that We Indians have the backbone to standout for Ourselves ,for the weaker and for our future...

This year witnessed deaths of many Legends from Steve Jobs to Indian legend Jagjit Singh! A sad turn of events indeed........
So While World witnessed so many revolutions and India faced its share of ups and downs....My Life too went through a sinusoidal phase.........
As only ten days left for 2012 to began,This is high time I should do some quality analysis of where am I heading.......

एक बार तो पूछो

इन जागती रातों का सबब तो पूछो
उन अधूरी बातों का मतलब तो पूछो

किस तरह हमने गुज़ारे  है मर मर के वो दिन बार बार ना सही एक बार तो पूछो

तेरी यादों का फ़साना  ना सही तेरी बातों का अफसाना  न सही पर तेरी उस मुस्कराहट की टीस अब भी बाकी है
अब भी बाकी है तेरे दामन में लिपट कर रोने की ख्वाहिश अब भी बाकी है मेरे प्यार की नुमाइश ....
अधूरे पन का ये सितम ...अकेलेपन की ये चुभन  ,दर्द में आसुंओ का सैलाब और उस पर  मेरे प्यार का कफ़न ..........एक बार बस एक बार तुम दिल का हाल तो पूछो ..............
.कुछ भी ना सही पर एक सवाल तो पूछो

Fashion and Me!

Ever since I passed out from Engineering College,I realised all these years I had been so lost in assignments and assignments and end semesters that somehow I have lost the track of how the other side lives!
There after I moved to Gurgaon from the ethnic city Jaipur,Life was fun and made new friends ,Started going out ,and yes some of the good lounges are there in Gurgaon and few good places to dine..My Personal favorite remains Howzzat and for Dinner its American Diner!
But the question always remained what should I wear to the places like that,Normally my girl friends used to wear jeans and all but given am not much of a jeans person I was a bit not sure how do I dress,but one thing I was sure whatever I would wear should be "me" not just donning a fake persona...Lots of experimentation went in and lots of disasters happened...

At Times Literary Fest

Now am in Mumbai and My Wardrobe is just 'me' Well as its almost a year down the line I have evolved...I have also began to socialize more and yes my love for good food pulls me to fine dining places...
Now From Food to Fests...I have equal enthusiasm for all ..And good Music is definetly a food for Soul...but then When it comes to dressing up,Nothing like it...

I love the collection of boots that I have but Alas I dont get muuch chance of wearing them in Mumbai but Still This time I wore it with this Dress.....and I was loving it..

White Dress for Evening Dinner!

When It comes to an evening wear Nothing Like White-Sheer Elegance and I somehow couldnot Rotate this  picture :(
But I wore this Dress when I went out for Fine Dining...A little below the knee It was just perfect for that evening,It was just so Me!

To be very Honest It went perfectly with the Car...and the ambience of that evening..White remains the best color -highlighting the simplicity yet the glamour,the right blend infact insync with my personality!
Another favorite color is black and when its the Concert that is but ofcourse the first choice...

The Standard a Black one Shoulder top worn over a pair of white Shorts! Well As so it happens when in concerts I end up dancing so much that I need an easy wear dress and a comfortable footwear!So that The fun is not killed by uncomfortable dressing the whole point of looking good is also being comfortable!

For me Personally I believe in Looking good and since I am a girl I am addictive to complements...Then When it comes to matter of style and trends may be am not a devout follower but I create my own statement and my own wardrobe where I can be my own ,Theres a lot to explore when it comes to dressing up but for a tiny body like me,I stand only 5ft3inches tall!!! one cannot exactly experiment a lot -Palazos are in but I look like a dwarf in them,Shorts works for me Moreover nothing can beat a denim with white shirt ! Any day Anytime Thats a statement unto itself ,I am not talking about the jeans but the denim shorts in my case....

I am not much of an accessories person I generally dont wear any necklace and hardly wear any jewellery but yes a pair of glittering studs goes well along with any dress...Belts also works well with denim shorts and then theres whole lot of choices available....
When it comes to footwear I love to mix and match but then keeping my comfort in mind first but yes One thing Stilletos are just in always ...Whether they are pink,black,red or silver ...With my small feet they make me look more taller ,wedges dont work for me!! But am glad as personally am more of a stilleto' heels  types and I love colors in them too...

Now the Last but not the least,I cannot step out without a makeup be it day or night It feels so incomplete ,but then again being original is the key factore you cannot just wear make up for the sake of it..The must to have items includes a lipgloss-transparent /pink,masacara and kajal! I have a wheatish  fair complexion,hence I dont apply much of the foundation and all but prefer a basic dab ....
In nutshell I am not much of a fashion geek but I love to dress up keeping the ocassion in mind and I believe its one of the most essential thing ,part and parcel of a woman's life,After all We are the beauty and I am indeed super proud of the sensuality and feminity,All girls are beautiful and we couldnot just ignore this fact,I am not denying that Spritual and inner beauty is foremost important but personal grooming is also a part of our own lives and we should be careful enough that each of us have our own style statement...

Look at what can Be!

Every day is a new beginning. Treat it that way. Stay away from what might have been, and look at what can be.
Past is Past ,whatever happened ,or couldnot happen ,Just let it go,I realised this Big time!
Past few weeks have been super taxing ,on my mind and on my body as well,Nothing seemed to fall at place and I myself made my life difficult......
Learning and Un-Learning happened simultaneously...
Walking down the promanade at 12 in the night ,The reflection of moon on the sea and the Silence of the waves proved to be an escape -an escape from the torturous trials of life all the tribulations and all the miseries......


I am feeling free..
I am feeling great...
The fears all gone..
The lights around me again turned on...
As the darkness vanquishes...
Ready for Life with its different faces........
Love Lost and love found...
Suffering and then the Rebound...........
Looking at what can be...
Forgiving and forgetting what couldnot be....


As I walk the miles ahead,
As I tread the path...
This is to me ! To My New Existence :) with that same vigour that same positivity and the same enthusiasm Doubled tripled or may be Much more in Momentum than any other time...
At one point or so you need to be vocal and you need to Stand up for your Dreams and It was high time and am glad that I didnot miss the chance.........

A place I call home!

Ever Since I moved to Mumbai,since September 2011 yes Again relocated to Mumbai from Gurgaon...Again and this time for good ,leaving the past behind dig deep inside ,hidden somewhere but not trying to overlook the fact that whatever happened had to happen and I was not the one at fault ,I need to accept and Move on..Change of City that too From Delhi to Mumbai was definetly a big step but a step vital for my own development as an individual...

I moved three places and am now finally settled at Seabird,An apartment just off the Carter road 700 sqft shared between me and two other girls,Well As of now this is a place I call home !

I come back looking forward for the cooking and dinner ,yes I enjoy cooking ,grocery shopping and all after a day spent at recruitment,struggling from sourcing resumes via naukri and monster and tiring the mind in and out!

Not that I donot love my work,I do but at times 9 hours proves to be more than Enough !

Coming back to the Flat which I call home,The bedroom is done all in pink,yes Remember we girls live here :)

Lampshades and all including the choice of colors have been of Swati the owner of this place ! Excellent I must say...We both are into reading and what else than a bed full of books,It's looking a bit cluttered but then Nothing Like it!

This is my Wardrobe,yeah It's like stuffed...Even I get confused sometimes....The bonus is The Mirrors,Both side and Needless to say I love them........Mirrors all over and what else could I ask for ;)

And the Favorite place of mine-The Kitchen,Our refrigerator and our Kitchen has everything which We love to eat,Yes We make sure we have almost everything,You can demand a cream of mushroom and We can cook in 7 minutes ;)

And while We Cook ,Our guests can Actually sit and chat :)

Thats a portion of hall demarcated as sleeping Area,yes thats My bed :) with the derth of spaces in the flats this gives a whole spacious look to the Flat !

Yes this is the Sitting Area...............

As of Now this is my abode in Mumbai............

Bandra -Carter road,You name it you have it all..........Feel like Going out for a drink,you have garage pubs to sophisticated bars........Theres a Bagel Shop just behind our place and yeah Not to forget the Next lane .....We have CCD's just giving the splendid view of the Ocean and lines of Restaurants-Be it Kareem,An Open Affair or you want to have a quick bite there's Subway and a lot many more........

Not feeling like sitting inside a walk in the Promenade ........just walking Parallely to the expnase of ocean........I have heard Rains at Carter roads are not to be Missed.......

My New Life is colorful............and yes I have plants in the Kitchen which I never water,thats what my other flatmate makes sure She does........

Last but not the least,Its a place I call Home!

Million Dollar Smiles

This is How it Started........
My Moving to Carter Road Appt,sharing it with two girls and bonding So Well with One of the Girl........
Life is fun when you have someone to share your Moments..
When Actually you can plan your Shopping or Can make a List and Moreover Can actually Cook not just to eat but to Cherish the priceless Relaxed Hours in Kitchen..

Beautiful lines written by One of my bestest Friends-

कल रात हुई बरसात, साथ में हम भी बहे गए

तुम्हे बता देते ज़रूर मगर शायद कुछ सोचते रह गए..
ये सोचना ही तो शुरुआत है उन बादलों की जो काले से पड़ जाते हैं..
और फिर हम जैसे गरमजोश अपनी बातों पे अड़ जाते हैं..

दिल दुखाया है.. है अहसास इस बात का..हम नहीं करेंगे अब इंतज़ार किसी रात का..

क्योंकि पता है तुम हमसे खो चुकी हो..

न जाने क्यों ऐसा लगा जैसे धडकनें रुकी हो..

दर्द हमें भी हुआ है मगर ये पता है..

की जो दर्द तुमने सहा है वो सिर्फ हमारी खता है..

अब और दर्द नहीं सह पाएंगे तुम्हे दर्द देने का..

शायद यही सिला होता है गलत मायनों में मोहब्बत करने का..लेकिन आज भी बे-इन्तेहाँ मोहब्बत है.. बस अब इतना कहेंगे..

अबके जो बरसात हो तो नाम तुम्हारा लेकर.. फिर बहेंगे..........

Somehow I felt like Sharing this with everbody ,not because I am showing off,Its because I am proud to have known somebody like him......

Shopping Trips

When in Bandra you could not resist the Hill road footpaths and the Linking Road Markets......From the chic trendy Shops to the ethnic Boutique You name it and you have it all,But Again Being from Delhi,I mean Having a taste of Janpath and Sarojini Nagar One tends to miss them amidst the linking roads and hill roads,Well then there is Stark difference between Delhi and Mumbai ,Slowly And gradually it is seeping in my shopping too,mumbai shopping is way too different ,Still Shopping is just the best things which you would never want to say No to......So when I accompanied my flat mate for Diwali shopping I captured a whole lot of shades of the Bandra Markets............

there were lots of variety and lots of shades,Copper and bronze seemed to be in these days the Price ranged from 300Rs to 1000 rs but the Sparkle in them caught my eyes.......

Thats the Copper Bracelet which was looking just too classy ,It could be worn over on Saree,or Even with Kurtis .......Its just how one carries I guess dressing is all about a Look as in how you want to Come Across..........
There this shop which I would specially like to name here - MELA It boasts of some lovely collections of garments handmade ,the materials are picked up from Bikaner /Jaislmer /Jaipur and the Designer recreates the ethnic magic.......

This is just a specimen of a Skirt which is again chic,Indian and in these days.......The Material is Silk and the Colors are so Indian !
Well How can I go out and Not Eat especially the Oh So Mumbai's the Aaloo Tikki's......

Nothing Like a good Chaat( We north Indians call it Chaat)...........

Dinner- and Again Dinner

The Few Last days have practically been super hectic..From hosting Dinner to attending Dinner...
Well for a Start We ( Me and my Lovely Flatmate ) decided to be a little social to our Neighbours as in Like Inviting ousrelf at their places,No No We never ask that You invite us Its just that Eventually We are :P
Jokes Apart,We had an invitation to a Dinner at home,thats the flat just below our appt,not exactly but yes the ground floor appt,and the tempting smell of Red Thai Fish Curry as I passed by the door while climbing upstairs(We donot have an elevator) Its not multistoreyed appt to justify this,But I guess most of the Bandra's Carter Road places are a bit like this only!Now yes back to the tempting smell of the curry I rushed upstairs to inform my Flat mate that The Dinner seems to be ready...This Neighbour considers himself from Pattaya(Thailand) Well He is very much Indian and Mumbaikar but According to him he has left India sme 10 years back...........Well long Story behind this Neighbour who was a film producer Now a jewellery manufaturer..Well He gave both of us rather a sweet pendant(Charm) .........
Now As The so called Neighbour has proudly proclaimed that he doesnt know Indian Cooking  We had offered to cook steamed rice at our place and When We go there We will take it along with it,So It was kind of We taking along the steamed rice instead of Wine( that gesture of ours saved us from all the trouble of buying a wine) Well ,Sharp 9pm We were at his Door Step with the steamed Rice and I was just too tempted  to eat the Dinner directly.You see travelling from Sion to Bandra is a pain and Well I was actually hungry.........But then We were served Glittering White Wine along with a fantabulous Salad,The theme was Thai and yes everything tasted super Awesome,The Music was my all time favorite classics,yeah I am big hindi oldie fan,I love the songs of S.D Burman and Manna dey...............Nothing like good food,good Music and Good Wine I must add .........
Dinner turned out to be a great affair as We ended up inviting another friend of ours to that dinner,the pretext was that this friend of ours is house hunting in Bandra,(yeah I know its kind worst thing that could happen to you,Finding a good place in Bandra! I had to undergo the trauma for a month but yes I ended up in a lovely Seabird,Carter road Appt........) and the Neigbour is leaving for his pseudo home Pattaya(Thailand) ,that is vacating the bandra appt ...Hence we though of acting the broker and saving this friend of ours a hefty brokerage.Yes the brokerage has always left me broke ,No doubt........
Now No more of cribbing :P I should be back to my Dinner's experience ,So Now a good Dinner followed by walk at 12 in the Night .........Thats the beauty of our place,We have this lovely carter road to ourselves..........and after 12 there is this Coffee,10rs each but the Sheer delight of sipping the coffee amidst the Walk and the Serenity of the Night........Sigh! Well Nothing like it! That was Just a Start,We never knew that the next day We will end up being the Host and the Day after We would dine at Bus Stop/Carter road,Yeah strange In Lemon Grass We had the starters and the Soup.......Though I am not a great fan of spinach dimsums and Sweet Corn Soup but I was way too happy to Complain,It was so that One of school friend has invited me for Dinner just to catch up and I took my flatmate along.......

Then as a sweet gesture We invited him the next day for Dinner and Now The Week only have 5 days,So Our calendars were blocked for dinner literally every day..Comes this Weekend,I find myself hanging out at TOTO's,Now That is an experience I would love to blog about in Detail,TOTO's is a pub -A garage pub but Nothing Like it Again............The Pakodas tastes super awesome and the Sheer Enthusiasm of the crowd.....Loud Music banging and you tend to enjoy the drink keeping all your thoughts aside.........I was not suitably dressed up I guess I was overly dressed up for a place like TOTO's but then I did notice appreciative glances..........

Post Diwali Blues..

Lots of things happening all of a Sudden.overwhelmed and Exhausted.Had this weird idea of penning down a short story,I have even started here in this blog itself,will try to post it after I have given the final touch.As of now I even donot know what would be the end.
Life has indeed taken a turn in a very unexpected but pleasant way..My Carter road place is just the place to be in..Lots of fun and Lots of good vibes.And yes I am in awe of my flatmate.She is just a super-woman I think..anyway I donot know how things will move ahead but as of now I am loving the walks around sea side ,those make up sessions and my cooking experiments.Sunday went by trying to give proper finish to Salad and getting invited by one of the Neighbour's who is going to Pattaya.He even gifted us earrings as gift,All thanks to bubbling enthusiasm,I actually love everything around me and quite enjoy it too..Theres a shadow of gloom lurking  but I have learnt it the hard way Nobody -Trust me Nobody would really wipe your tears....Life has all the components in it and yes The Onus is on  me how to cope up!
In a good way or the bad way I am somehow Struggling with my bad times......Infact Nothing lies ahead of me but Still I am loving my rounds of Shopping spree....
Infact there are lots of posts which I am yet to post.From Sunday Salad to Friday Shopping,From Bagel shops experience to buying grocery in Pali Naka...From the recipe of Malwani chicken to Lots of Desi ghees Mithais,I am yet to post lots of stuffs that happened  recently..
Now In office and Juggling with Post Diwali Blues,Yes After Five Short days of Vacation Being back on workstation Sucks Big time !

Love ! Sonal and Rahul

Sonal

Bright sunny morning. Alarm buzzing.
Not again. Another Monday back to work.
Getting ready eating nothing she always gets late however early she tries to wake up.
Six months of a boring routine job in a multinational firm
She hated that job,yet somehow she coped
She always did manage to pull through. That was her.
Independent yet too emotional not that she cries at the drop of hanky.
But then she really is somewhat reactive well passionate about each and every stuff,more than ready to give a helping hand and a very dependable person.
Sometimes due to this habit of hers she has even worked overtime without any monetary benefits.
That is the corporate world where friendship/ people don’t count .it took her Six months to realize this.

Things have started being normal otherwise her initial months had been a night mare
Though she managed to live alone first time separated by her family, well thrown out.
She had to cut her ties off her parents. Yeah they resented her job and here she was but then.
She never did look back
This was what she had always wanted...and much more eventually she's been working quite hard .Struggling to meet her end's meet!

Rahul-

Magazine publisher Rahul lived life in the fast lane, slowing down only to savor the finer things in life, like good Scotch and hot women. 

Today,Monday He would be taking over this new assignment that is relocating to India. He was being called from New York where he has his base as his father had just suffered another stroke.

Rahul preferred States to India but this time he simply can’t refuse and one of the good reason was but obvious few months of space from Olivia his fiancée.

Olivia was his fiancée as well as his business partner in the Magazine which he had started on his own.

Though like a normal son he was expected to step into the shoes of his father but Rahul was always a rebel.

Rahul’s car stopped at the crossing and just like a flash of lightning he saw her...

Sonal was sitting by the window .She always preferred  looking outside just skimming the whole city as her Volvo passed the Mumbai Streets lost in her own world, headphone plugged to her ears, Music thrumming down her veins

Her gaze rose, taking in the impeccable Italian suit, the crisp white shirt, the extravagantly wide shoulders, the smooth, tan skin…and finally stared up into Rahul’s cool gaze.

There was certainly nothing appealing in his eyes now!

Sonal and Rahul just kept staring at each other. Signal went green and car drove away in a lightning speed.

Now what was that!!

Sonal felt a jolt of electric spark that stranger’s gaze has just ignited

It was not like her but still His eyes had that look it was just so unforgettable

She would never forget this encounter!!

His eyes has been etched in her heart..

With Love.......

I write this to you with Love........
To Whomsoever It may Concern-Yeah I donot know your Name.You Exist as I exist,You are somehwere Down there Too Wondering the Same thing as I end up wondering each time Festivals are around the corner,No Not Really I end up thinking about you when It rains... When I see Moon shining brightly and the clouds playing hide and seek ...When I miss being with someone,When I am Me...I miss cuddling next to you...Like I missed you Last Night When All of a sudden I was woken up by a bad Nightmare,I was crying and you were Not there to wipe My tears,I know you didnot know.How would you..We donot even know each other..
Its just that I know You....
Its just that Deep in My heart theres a Believe and this Believe makes me Write this Crazy post ........
Anyway Am actually Weird ,Given I have got this Incomplete Story to Complete...............Alishaa-Thats What I have Decided to Name Her,and Sid-Siddharth -Somethings Going on Between them and They Even Donot Know----------So Here I am posting the Short story Series--------

Weddings!

Every Now and then I find my Inbox filled with Wedding Invitees..My Facebook Home page filled with updates Like "Countdown Begins..." or Now " He /She is engaged/Married to ..." Well to cut  it Short,Several people I know Are getting hitched ,are either engaged or going to be...Not that I am Complaining,I am Perfectly happy basking in the glory of my single status and yeah Kind of enjoying all the Attentions :P

Anyway Though am single and not even willing to Mingle ;) Given I am a piscean So kind of dreamer and over imaginative,I can't help think/dream about my near future Wedding ..that

near future might be 5 light years away

Not that I am worried..I still believe Once in awhile, Right in the middle of an ordinary life, Love gives us a fairy tale.and May be Someday I too will have that Love 

As of Now Its just a vague hazy sketch with me that what if I get married,Though I want to 

get married in a typical traditional Indian way but then I cannot help but dream of a  typical 

Bahamas/Beach Wedding..That awe-inspiring exquisiteness, striking lavishness and romantic charm 

Somewhere deep in my heart I want to be wedded like a Polynesian Princess or Somewhere like the Pantheon in Rome or floating across above the canals of Venice or  over the water bungalows hovering above outrageously beautiful coral reefs

making my special day magical. 

Well Well....Its just a stupid Fancy of mine...As Right Now am reading a mystery Novel set in Venice So blame it on the Book :P

But yeah Anyday Nothing Like an Indian Wedding with red Lehenga ,Heavy gold Jewellery and a Typical Baraat :)

"Marriage is the golden ring in a chain whose
beginning is a glance and whose ending is Eternity."

Narcissism

 Narcissus was a handsome Greek youth who had never seen his reflection, but because of a prediction by an Oracle, looked in a pool of water and saw his reflection for the first time. The nymph Echo--who had been punished by Hera for gossiping and cursed to forever have the last word—had seen Narcissus walking through the forest and wanted to talk to him, but, because of her curse, she wasn't able to speak first. As Narcissus was walking along, he got thirsty and stopped to take a drink; it was then he saw his reflection for the first time, and, not knowing any better, started talking to it. Echo, who had been following him, then started repeating the last thing he said back. Not knowing about reflections, Narcissus thought his reflection was speaking to him. Unable to consummate his love, Narcissus pined away at the pool and changed into the flower that bears his name, the narcissus.
( A Greek Myth)

P.S :I am not referring to the disorder but to the meaning of the word in general
Narcissism ..this word may be and well is used in negative context.But what remains is that Is Being Selfish that bad?
We are alive.Its our Life then why care for others
Selfishness Or Egoism every where is used in portraying  the Person's worst characteristics since time immemorial.
I have been several time been accused of siding with this line of thought but To my small unintellectual mind it doesnot makes sense.
As to Accepting the normal thinking ,Well generally I never go along by what others have to say or other's opinion.
I am a bit or very much into this school of thought that things which appear sensible to me my mind is the thing I believe in whether My actions or My behavior .
They are not dependent on Society's norm
Its all in My Mind and I tend to stick to it.

Well Am again sidetracking from my topic that of Narcissism..Here I would like to quote the definition from Wikipedia Narcissism is the personality trait of egotism denoting vanity, conceit, or simple selfishness. Applied to a social group, it is sometimes used to denote elitism or an indifference to the plight of others.

 Theres a Lot More to it..But What Am concerned is that the definition itself contains few of my favorite words..such as Elitism ...Well Whats wrong in being "Elite".!!!
And why the hell be I bothered to the plight of the others.I am an honest citizen.I pay my taxes.I hard earn my salary and am a valuable member of Society.
My only concern is "I"...
Well I dont believe in idea of collective society as I strongly believe its hindrance to ones own mental and moral developments.Growth as an individual will be hampered and Yes!! Ofcourse How can I forget my favorite lines from My favorite books,my bible  the Atlas Shrugged

"I swear by my life and my love of it that I will never live for the sake of another man, nor ask another man to live for mine."

Anyway...Ayn Rand 's work are complete masterpiece and no need to say reflects the most correct and apt judgments of Human nature.
I was reading Freud then I came across the three terms which he has used mostly ID,EGO,SUPEREGO.
In reference to them he has detailed his further analysis.
Again the thoughts expressed are completely in sync with the general most common trait of human nature.
Sigmund Freud's earlier work also include a clinical description of Narcissism in his book 'An introduction to Narcissism' which one can say is also a milestone in his career.I have not read that book but Going by Sigmund Freud's approach I can well say that the Psycho Analysis on Narcissism would be just as wonderful as his other books have been..My favorites being Civilization and Its Discontent and the Interpretation of Dreams.
Anyway All about Authors and their line of thought But In more simple language...I think that Healthy Narcissism is not negative and Ego is the real realization of one's own true self.
One should be well aware of what he is and where his stands lie.The only Moral purpose of one's life is attainment of Happiness which is also very rare.
We tend to be influenced by external temperaments resulting in loosing one's own core values and one's own real purpose
Self-Realization is the most integral part and Should be done in order to live the life..
In order to be truly Alive that is..

Only Mine :*

A Love like ours

Hard to find,Difficult to Define…

A feeling so real ,so tender …..So Sublime…

Crusade against the Time…

It’s a sin and a crime…

But yet the Deliriousness…like the music in the air that of a wind chime…

A Love like ours

Hard to find,Difficult to Define…

In its raw state No need to refine..

Emotions unrestricted..Needless to Confine….

Intoxicating and Delicious Tastes Like a Vintage Wine….

Your smile Brightens My day..yes Honey you are My SunShine…

Going Against All the Norms …All I can Say that you are all I have…You are Only Mine

Partner-Life Partner

“A man's sexual choice is the result and the sum of his fundamental convictions.... He will always be attracted to the woman who reflects his deepest vision of himself, the woman whose surrender permits him to experience a sense of self-esteem. The man who is proudly certain of his own value, will want the highest type of woman he can find, the woman he admires, the strongest, the hardest to conquer--because only the possession of a heroine will give him the sense of an achievement.” 
― Ayn Rand, Atlas Shrugged
Well its not only true for Bedmates but applicable also with respect to friends we have.A man is judged by the Company he keeps,So True.Friends are the only relation which We human are not imposed by virtue of birth unlike other relations.Its that whatever friends he/she has is by choice not by any accident or by fate!
Even when it comes to choosing Partners its Actually worth pondering over.I mean the kind of person one chooses to spend the entire life.In India the concept is a bit different,Most of us end up going for Arranged match..Having a certain checklist and the requirement gets fulfilled eventually.
For a girl like me say 25year old B.Tech graduate, a standard checklist would include a decent software engineer B.e/B.Tech guy preferably from same hometown and yes theres a criteria of education too...preferably IIT/IIM/IIIT's and NIT's ..Funny and nothing new,not to forget same caste and same family background a bit of this and a bit of that...
That explains the popularity of various Matrimonial sites too!
Well I am not bragging that I am a different kind altogether that I donot believe in Traditions and all but yes a thing which I am quite sure is that Never ever in My Life I would just toss my life simply to somebody who matches the pre-requisites standards set by my Parents.
Its not that I donot love them,It neither that I donot have any attachment with my family ,Its simply that I refuse to let a meeting of 10minutes decide that He is the one for me...I still believe in my dreams and moreover a Love which is eternal..A love which wont be just a mere feeling  but assertion of one's value being reflected in others thought! that perfect Person out there for me who reflects the same sentiments/echoes back the same Morals and yeah a very much part of "I" brigade,an objective and a rational mind in search for the same!
Anyway Infact it becomes all the easy when I see different people's partners choice,Being in HR has taught me few things and that includes a sharp insight into people's behavior and aptitude.It helps while interviewing the candidates and Even when it comes to friends and Volunteering or conducting workshops It makes me reach out to maximum number of people making me a popular as a friend and as a colleague !

Butterfly Effect-A Small difference

The butterfly effect is a metaphor that encapsulates the concept of sensitive dependence on initial conditions in chaos theory; namely a small change at one place in a complex system can have large effects elsewhere.Heres the wiki link http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Butterfly_effect

Why am I talking about this effect is that a small act can go a long way in changing/shaping somebody else life...In a recent conversation with one of  my friend on the relative merits of social work,Volunteering during Weekends and Conducting workshops for the under privileged children...What we overlooked  was that atleast something is always better than nothing..If all of us sit back home thinking there is enough corruption,more than enough poverty and a lot of below the poverty people crowding our nearby societies...Infact the place where I live in Andheri-Lokhandwala there is a whole slum of people -labour class mostly ..it stinks yes badly ,the hygiene around that place leaves a great question to be answered..the litter and the overflowing dustbins speaks Volume..No offence to any Municipal corporations but then the truth is ugly..Its not just Mumbai...Even when I was in gurgaon...just next to the place where I used to reside there was small community of labour class living..the urchins playing on street naked Well yeah I agree this is the picture of India potrayed..Cows on street,naked children playing gulli-cricket and lots of cow dungs scattered over road...True to an extent and real as well..Most of will tend to disagree,Given we are a country of IITs+IIM's crowd,a country which boasts of number of good genius brains,country which is deemed a bank to worlds best talents....

yes a Country we all are proud..I am a part of working class in a country with no special Mother Teresa Talent..Its just that something really irks me and which motivates me to interact with people around and atleast try to make a difference to some ...The girls I met who so much wanted to study but couldnot,the boys with dreams in their eyes but no resources ...That guy who is studying in B.Com part 1 and who sell eggs in night to support his ailing father and family of four...Trying to search for a part time job in Mumbai at times becomes difficult though we have so many philanthropists all around..but what my point is that charity wont help in long run..

An attitude to help and a Acceptance of the people around..Respect to the people around who are not born and brought up as privileged as we are is of utmost importance.

Why I thought of butterfly effect when discussing about impact of Social work because its what stimulates an ongoing reaction prevailing in our community ..a small action initiated at a small place can easily be transformed to action for greater good..

Now I am a believer in objectivity..I believe in being rational and realist hence I wo0ulnt boast that how I sacrifice my precious hours working for under privileged but yes giving a quality time and a quality contribution is something I have been regularly doing irrespective of the fact that yes there are times when patience is being tested but then I remeber that spider and King Scott's story -The famous how the spider didnt stop climbing despite of failing multiple times...Well fail and pass what exactly is success or failure Its again relative..To me At the end of the day Self Satisfaction matters....Yes told you so am Selfis,and everything I do I do it for myself :)

Thats me with children at Prerna