Friday, January 27, 2012

A Difference,A change

What just starts as a passion turns out to be desire.A strong desire to value add,to be of value add to someone else's life,and they are not just anybody .They are those children ,the urchins whom we see daily playing over the side of roads,struggling for survival and still having that light in the eyes,still having a dream,yes they do have a dream to fly planes,to be a doctor,to be a driver or to be a hero like the one they see in the banners.They also sing song and chase birds,they also play and fight but the only difference is that while they are like every other children around us ,they still are not sure what they are going to eat or whether they are going to eat.
Yes A nation like ours where we talk of equality ,We talk of freedom,We talk of Democracy ,and Republic,Yes India celebrated  its 63rd Republic yesterday and there was lots of celebrations around the world amidst Indians and India loving people.


But what I meant to say that Why are these children deprived of their basic rights,their basic right to live.I donot believe in materialistic pampering of every kid but atleast the bare minimum nutrition,the primary education and yes right to live their life as children.
How many children are forced to bonded labour,forced in prostitution,forced into beggary..Countless.There are no exact stastics available.


Each day While from home to Work I cross such a huge gathering of children excitedly picking up rags,yes they are the rag pickers.I asked them Didn't they go to school? Yes we wanted to but if we go who will earn? Came the quick reply and that too very astute! Yes I was not surprised...
I always believed that there are no problems but only solutions.So what would be the Solution to this.....?


When I was in gurgaon,I was associated with a project called Prerna


-Even Till date I am very closely attached to the progress and all happening at their front but After relocation to Mumbai,Active Participation is not possible.What I realised from the interaction with the kids their that merely a primary education ,enrollment in schools are not sufficient,I agree basic education is mandate but what is more important is that they become self sufficient enough to atleast have a proper meal,for that they need to earn and yes being borm below poverty line certainly doesnt entitle you the lavishness like the life of those children who just had to concentrate on education rest taken care of,No! These children have to survive...They need skills which enables them to earn and fend for themselves and yes accompanied with  the education.
Alphabets are their best friends they need to realize but what is more important for them is Need to survive,and that could only be fulfilled if they get to eat and live .
Thats where The "I" in me struggles ,struggles to create an environment of change where these kids could have one right ,One Right to Live .I remember my childhood fondly and How I wish for other kids like them to have that childhood returned back to them......


There is a desire to bring about a difference but still juggling ,struggling from the mad rat race syndrome ......I am desperate to chase my dreams where I never have to see a child sleeping without eating ,crying for food ,deprived of the basic right to Live,deprived of the right to be human......I still struggle and the Journey is yet to begin in that right direction...
After all "Childhood is the world of miracle or of magic: it is as if creation rose luminously out of the night, all new and fresh and astonishing. Childhood is over the moment things are no longer astonishing. When the world gives you a feeling of "déjà vu," when you are used to existence, you become an adult."

Thursday, January 19, 2012

Its the love effect





P.S- This title of the blog came up to me in the end of this post as earlier I had decided to title it as "Living the Moment" but Alas! Its the Love Effect



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Yes All we are fond of the good things in our life and those good things make up good moments...

Collective Moments form memories! but what about essence of being alive with each breath....

Each living moment as beautiful as coming the one as precious as the last!

After all In the end, it's not going to matter how many breaths you took, but how many moments took your breath away...

Life is not only about just coping up and surviving.Its those little things that matter .those dreams that we dream,those memories we cherish...

Its all about Emotions/feelings in the end,yes we are made in such a way that our emotions constitute the large part of our existence...Be it love,anger,hatred,compassion......Nothing like the celebration of life with the ones we love and yes Nothing like that feeling when we truly realise that yes our Life is not just our Life anymore,Our Memories are not ours alone,and Our Moments are not only ours...Its one of those phases where we are in love ...

Then there is also a phase where one starts to blog about something and ends up blogging again about that special person that special moment...yeah guess Its me...I am way too much in love these days! yeah I wanted to blog about living each moment as much as any other...but look What I am scribbling ,Its the love effect ...but whatever it is Its very lovely!




Indeed All the Moments ,All the Memories and this very much Life....Everything is just the way It should have been or else something would have been Missing...To live is the rarest thing that most people do,Many just exist but Now that am living life am actually Loving it....
With or without Love ,Life goes on but its just a salt -pepper combination...We need to be alive , like  as we need to breathe in and out ....Its the way we are designed....

This I came across while browsing over the net and found it just so apt! yes I am unperfect and its nothing but the Love Effect.....

Wednesday, January 18, 2012

Yes you were there in my thoughts...

Yes you were there in my thoughts...
Yes you were there  very much  in my heart....

Those silent whispers of my heart...
Those silent prayers of my lips...
Lingering like an unspoken hope



We walked hand in hand...
Covered Miles around but what remained was the  Distance between us...
Eyes  speak but you never saw ..
Celebration of an epiphany of love Still Remains..
Confessions of Feelings still a question....
Comprehending An eulogy of the relationship at times becomes difficult Nevertheless With tear blurred eyes one has to write......


Saturday, January 14, 2012

Things that a Woman Want!

A happy Woman is a myth...I have heard it several times but then this statement itself  is made by some man...Men ,the word itself conjures up an image of those helpless types who dont even know where they would be hadn't it for we Women,yeah from the very beginning they are just so dependent - first its their mothers ,then their sisters ,some best friends from school or their never ending girlfriends! Give we women a break!
Come on We Deserve it from the era of serving you,pleasing you and just making our life as your life,Now We want to get free.
We would like to be independent of the thought that somewhere some Man is expecting us to come back home and cook dinner for them...
We would like to make decisions of our outings irrespective of your scheduled meetings and meetings...
We would love to shop just for ourself not trying to figure out which shirt will  hide that stomach paunch of yours...
Yes,We woman whom  you adoringly call as your wife/girlfriend/mother want our life back......
Even when it comes to the food its you men who have their choices ,We just need to cook and impress you with our culinary skills....
We Woman want to break this shell of dressing up for you guys,For a change why dont you Men develop your style and if you are anyway stylist then your orientation definitively  is towards the same gender,So much for the ideal Man description...
and yes We are tired of giving you men  a free hand,All you could ever do is run it all over.....We Woman are created for a reason to keep Men Sane but now We want to break free...
We are tired of you Men over analyzing our behavior ,Can't you understand that we dont need anything We just need one thing and that is freedom to be ourselves....We have given our whole life to you as a mother,as a sister ,as a friend ,as a lover and yeah the most important as a Wife.......
Now We dont expect anything but just that one little thing that is freedom of being an individual ,with you being always there ,with all the love reciprocated with all the tenderness showered......with all those perfect moments.........
We are not complete without you but We want you to know as well that you are also not complete without us......

Sunday, January 8, 2012

That one person.....

Never accepted this but yes how that one person can bring in a change,that realisation itself was enough ,never felt like exploring the other side..
There are times when you are at your best and there are times when you are at your worst,at times to vulnerable but for me there has been a time when I have tried to run away from situations,tend to cut down the particular portion for ever and ever and blocking from memory and mind...But Sometimes Its not enough! You can recover from a bad relationship or a bad illness but you can never escape from somebody who's been all but good to you!
That one person in my life who came out of nowhere made me realise the importance of acceptance of oneself as who you are not as what the people around you expects.At times,It becomes just so difficult to cope up,there are peers,there are parents and there at the back of mind theres this particular person for whom the heart skips a beat.......
And all the mind is fixated is just how to be in sync with his/her........That one person is enough to bring the smile to otherwise dull face,that person becomes the center of existence and that one person just becomes a part of your Life forever!
We have an object of adoration ,and we feel that He/She is all we could have ever wanted and that one person makes you feel like a fool for having believed otherwise.......
For having questioned that Fairytales donot exist,but in real That one person succeeds in weaving a whole fairy tale with that magic wand of love...Not only The union of heart but also the Connection of mind.......with that one Person the Soul speaks........the language of love whispered amidst the shadows of two bodies........Those essential meetings,that growing of fondness and that mutual admiration blossoming  full fledged into a special relation of a Life time.....That Eternal Love never felt like before,with that One Person.......

Picking up the Pieces

Yes Its the New years Second Sunday ,Could have been a Perfect Sunday if at all I could have all that I never had......
Picking up the pieces and Moving ahead,Isn't Life all about this! Summation of Life is done mostly in three words......It Goes On...So Does We......For me Acceptance has been difficult
Struggling from an impecunious state to juggling between desire and need is tough,Sometimes Its just that there is nothing left,Starting from a Zilch again is Like as if you have just been born but while there could always be a fresh start but what about the wounds that have yet not healed....
I needed to confess something I always thought I am in love!
What I never realised that is that the need to love or the need to be loved that is driving me towards this particular relationship.To be honest I never had an affair,yeah Not the affair ,never had mushy-mushy talks,For me I always tend to create a world out of this real world and tend to limit myself to that,So the possibility of real relationships and meeting ,exploring the real aspects was minimal,I did suffer eventually!
Now The reality is that I am all by myself,Friends........Well I am a failure,Few good friends I made on my way from school to college are no doubt have been all supportive but then thats it,what I missed out is a real set of friends having shared experiences , sharing the trials and tribulations!
I donot have any college day memories lingering when I visit my engineering college,I was far too busy complaining that how I never wanted to be tortured for four years of engineering,I was pretty bad...
What I have always been good with still remains a question which I need to answer,I mean Do I have any particular quality.......
I love dancing but then have I ever even dedicated an hour to it! Not that I remember,I love dreaming,I have so many plans but when it comes to the execution part I badly fail.......
Working on the weaknesses is another challenge which I need to take 2012 but yes Foremost and important I need to be honest about myself to myself,I can no longer afford to live in a fairy tale but then I donot want to be brittle!
Few people come in our Life and makes us realise What we exactly want,Mumbai gave me a golden chance to connect with such people........
Meeting "A" for the first time was itself a realisation,which I tried to ignore but Now After five months I need to be honest and yes am proud that though I have disconnected myself from him but I confessed as well......

I no more want a relationship out of fake premises.The  root has to be nurtured in the soil of honesty......Given He is such a great guy I could atleast do this for him if not for me :)

Picking up the pieces and Venturing all alone,Looking for a way out there with the unending dreams............