उनके ही इंतज़ार में..........

राहों में खड़े हम. उनके इंतज़ार मे.…… 

ज़िन्दगी गुज़र गयी  तनहा उनके  ही   प्यार  में     

अक्सर  आंसूं पूछते  अपने  होने का सबब हमारे ज़ज्बात से.।

राते  अकेली , दिल में  बेचैनि… फिर भी हम रुके रहे उनके इंतज़ार में। ……

 मर कर भी जीते  रहे हम.…हस कर ज़हर जुदाई का पीते रहे हम। 

धड़का  भी दिल तो उसपे उनका ही नाम  था………. कुछ ऐसा दीवानापन था  हमारे ही प्यार में। । 

Tits and Bits from my old wordpress blog! Gosh! Why did I delete it

A Life!

What a life full of lies …….

Of All the hues and cries

Things are all deceptive..

Feelings too are least receptive…

Upheaval and Change a lot to ponder and lot to blame…

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Wispy Hope

Living in a impecunious state all because of him.., the quotidian feelings are now just a way of life.. Its raining here and the weather as usual is heavenly

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Only Mine

A Love like ours

Hard to find,Difficult to Define…

A feeling so real ,so tender …..So Sublime…

Crusade against the Time…

It’s a sin and a crime…

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Craziness redefined

From the aimbitious bitch to the homely avatar,I never thought one day I will just resign from the job,Infact a very good job,kind of an ideal opening for someone non-technical software engineer like me !

Painful reverie

Love is a choice you make from moment to moment. I realized when I stepped inside the car this Saturday!

I was the last of my team to have been working so late..Hence The labyrinth of deserted work areas felt like a ghost town the entire floor taking on ban almost sepulchral feel…..Anyway Its 3Am Tuesday arrived Monday over Strange Didnot realize…Lovely weather outside…..Am sitting on the balcony of my room and staring at the sky above…Moon is securely hidden behind the dark foamy grey clouds floating carelessly over the sky..no stars visible as of today..The world is fast asleep and most probably he would be sleeping..I felt an urge to give him a call and simply hear his voice……I felt a distinct pang of loneliness Like the howling wind on a stormy night..the memories came tearing back pulling at me the way they always did

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Topics Companionship Fiction Love Poetry

Careless Whispers

All I want is to be with you
You take me there where I can be with you
Coz all I want is to be with you…

Moments..School days

We do not remember days; we remember moments. ~Cesare Pavese, The Burning Brand
True Indeed..
Moments constitute memory..Seldom we find ourselves devoid of that
Often We find light of memory flickers in our eyes…

In the recesses of my heart!

I am afraid,yes I am afraid..That nagging feeling of being left all alone is still there…that worry clouding the judgements still looms over by and large!

I still have a long way to go when it comes to trusting my instincts and acting on  it.

I always have been a rebel.All the time being aginst the set standard norms,ready to defy and break the rules and blunt to an extent of being rude!

This is not a good sign,being honest doesn’t help.It never helped.I have few friends,many enemies,worst I am single.

Where are the Men who could be termed as Men! Lol here I sound sexist.Yes I am! Very much from that school of thought wherein I believe an ideal man: A man of  my dreams should be the one who wears the pants in the family,takes care of his women and I bask in his attention and love which would be showered to me and blah blah…blah…I am a typical woman,I really hate wearing denims and trousers though I do have curves that could be emphasized more still I am very much much comfortable in what I am!

Still I am born into an era of peterpan generation wherin nothing is easy and everything is easy! Contradictory yes very very much…but that’s the truth!

You sell cheap and you also buy cheap…demand and supply ratio has just been reversed.The reason I am feeling insecure is that I am in a limbo…

At this point of time I need an Angel ,perhaps while I am writing this in blog,hopefully my angel too reads it and Saves me from all the ongoing chaotic thoughts in my mind…

I strongly feel live every moment,do what you feel like and listen to your heart but today I am shaken..I am dreading the unforeseen future…….trying to be what I am not! Just because I am afraid I will die a lonely hag…I refuse to surrender but then I am getting weak…My heart is screaming out to me stop before its too Late!

You are a girl who has endured a lot worse than this than why surrender now! But that sinking feeling ….How do I fight! 

That voice of my inner Soul still guides me but yes I have apprehensions......